Floating

I feel somewhat ungrounded these days. I need a lot more journaling, a lot more heart-to-hearts with friends, a lot more time in the sun, a lot more prayer. A lot more "me" time that isn't spent watching television shows on my laptop to relax.

Staying in Spokane after graduation has been a bit of a mixed experience. I enjoy my job and am grateful to have it, and I am truly beginning to love the city. But in certain ways I feel left behind. So many of my college friends have moved away and continued their lives in other cities, with other people, and I'm torn between wishing I could be with them and wishing I had found my own new community somewhere else.

I have decided, in response to this (since I can't move to Portland tomorrow), to pursue friendships here in Spokane with more intentionality (is that a word? Maybe it's just intention). I'm going to override my own insecurities and seek out the community that I need. Maybe there are others here who need it too.

God, give me gumption.